Choose My Adventure: Diary of a Legends of Aria desert wildman

Choose My Adventure: Diary of a Legends of Aria desert wildman

The desert sun rakes its fingers over my bronzed skin like I am the coals of a forge. Indeed, I am the forge: the thing that produces strong weapons, not the iron placed in the flame. I am the flame. I am the desert of this land. This is how my Legends of Aria story closes. Not in failure, but in a sort of unintended triumph. A rebirth.

The epiphany came to me in defeat. I still remember my first death. The sound of my heart thrumming in my ears as I ran for my life, only to hear its steady beat falter and fail. I shed the weight of armor and the weight of responsibility then. I was reborn, my prior life the shell of the egg that shattered and my new form clawing its way out. I saw my true form them.

For a long time I had been coming to this world – this sandbox – the wrong way. I was living my life ready to achieve a win condition of some sort. A goal that was meant to be achieved and strived for with everything I had. Something like an endgame. But in the moment of my first death and true birth, I realized that I shouldn’t live for a goal, but I should just live to live.

Some voice whispers to the back of my head. They’re led by sort of super consciousness that steers my actions. It seems to have lived through countless worlds before, viewing many realms far beyond just this one that I traverse now. It bears the wisdom of a multitude of world experiences and is guided by a court of others that steers its steps, and they in turn steer mine. Collectively, these voices all seem to tell me one thing: “Just live out here. Be free.” And so I am.

These voices – the Prime Voice calls them the Readers – are wise beyond my understanding and powerful beyond all measure. I promise it’s not just the scorpion stinger I ate talking, I swear this is all true. It feels true. I can sense it’s true. Why else would I be out here?

Yes… why? The question remains of why I really am out here. I ask Prime Voice about their decree, wonder to them aloud as I roam the wastes what sort of point there is to this. I hunger instinctively for the yoke of my past life and the comfort of its pulling direction, but the Prime Voice reminds me that endgame is futility and that the chase of a win is missing the point. “This stuff is supposed to be fun, and isn’t it fun to be free of inhibitions and responsibilities?” I look down upon my unclothed form and I am inclined to agree.

And then I was struck down by a lizardman in an underground dungeon, am reborn again, and laugh at the futility of their attempt. Yes, I was struck down. Easily. Handily. Some might even say embarrassingly. But I rose again, the same as ever, undeterred and unworried, while they lived out their own miserable, hidden existence. Suddenly what the Prime Voice and the Readers say makes sense. I no longer care about anything other than being here. I have no worry to cloud my judgement, no needs to chase. I’m just existing.

They say I lost. I say that I have won. I won the game. I win the game!!

…boy that was weird, wasn’t it? I apologize for the long in-character tangent, but I couldn’t help myself but play around with the idea of madness and ambivalence both turning our Legends of Aria character into a sort of sun-baked mad guru. I hope it was at least interesting to read!

Ultimately, the point of that whole piece was to illustrate just how I feel about failure in sandbox MMORPGs. When you lose it all, you kind of have to lean into the failure and accept it. In my case, I coped by making my now “defeated” character a sort of immortal desert wastrel, but I can appreciate how building yourself back up to your previous strength can be gratifying. Hell, even having planned for the eventuality can lessen the sting. But I think I’ve learned a valuable lesson with my time in Legends of Aria: Sometimes you have to accept a missed step and move on. In some way.

Even if moving on means turning into a naked lunatic.

I think I’m done with this game and am ready to move onto another one. I feel the need for some ARPG action this coming month, and I have a couple of thoughts on where I should be heading next:

  • MapleStory 2: It’s been a while since I booted this one up, and there’s been some updates to the game in both the early game and endgame that I think I’d like to try.
  • Path of Exile: Another one I haven’t played in a while, and one that I may need guidance in, especially if the current Blight League is beyond my reach in terms of level. I have a mid-level character waiting here, so I might be able to get into something.
  • Pagan Online: One that’s just come out and one that seems like bombastic fun, if perhaps a bit shallow. I’m unsure how many choices can be made from this one, but it could be worth a look.
  • Torchlight Frontiers: While this one is still being actively developed, I also feel like there’s enough game here to warrant a bit of a look ahead and at least some things to maybe vote on in terms of what people may want to see.

So, which game full of loot pinatas should I head to?

Which MMOARPG should I go to? Choose My Adventure!

  • MapleStory 2: Let's see some color up in here! (15%, 10 Votes)
  • Path of Exile: Dig in and get cracking on some progress and maybe Leagues (12%, 8 Votes)
  • Pagan Online: Let's take a look at just what this game has to offer. (28%, 19 Votes)
  • Torchlight Frontiers: No, let's take a look at what THIS game has to offer. (45%, 30 Votes)

Total Voters: 67

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As usual, polling will be closed up at 1:00 p.m. EDT this coming Friday, October 4th. As always, thanks to everyone for participating. I hope that this month’s column didn’t end on too weird of a note for too many people. It’s not the NyQuil’s fault this time, I promise. This time, it’s because I am a huge roleplaying nerd and saw the opportunity for some character story.

Welcome to Choose My Adventure, the column in which you join Chris each week as he journeys through mystical lands on fantastic adventures – and you get to decide his fate. Which is good because he can often be a pretty indecisive person unless he’s ordering a burger.

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I thoroughly enjoyed the in-character tangent. Thanks, Chris. :)


Why not Maplestory? the original one?