I can feel its fingers creeping into my depths.
Once, it was when I closed my eyes; now, even when I open them I can feel it worming within me, feel my muscles struggle to flex and control once more as the frost accumulates in deeper layers. It is invisible to everyone. I smile, and I behave as if I am fine, and yet my body moves ever more slowly despite my efforts. Each breath is through a thick coat of fog that is coated in tiny crystals, each smile hides a mouth full of slick hardness.
It does not hurt any more in a way that would make sense to an outside observer. Pain has left me with nothing but itself to use as an axis. There are days when it is hideous and days when it is merely unbearable, and there is no respite. I struggle for warmth, for heat, wherever I can find it… and yet the ice is still there. Still coating. Still growing. Even after being flush with heat for a moment, something will happen and a cold wind will whip against me and I feel myself freezing anew, knowing that one day I will slip, one day my arm will not move as I bid it, and that will be the end of me.
Everything is fine, What Are You Playing.
Bonus question: Do you like scary movies?
Andy McAdams: Since I hit the mid-30s wall on New World I’ve lurched back over to The Elder Scrolls Online for a bit. Couple that with my normal casual jaunts into Guild Wars 2 and more Rimworld plus Halloween festivities and my weekend is pretty well planned out.
Yes! But I love supernatural thriller – ghosts, demons, hauntings. I’m not a fan of slasher / murderporn. That’s not scary to me, just gross.
I do not like scary movies
Brianna Royce (@nbrianna, blog): I’ve been back in City of Heroes, but I’ll also put time cooking in Star Wars Galaxies Legends, and maybe some Guild Wars 2, and I might finally get my toon transferred in New World. And I reinstalled Albion Online because I miss it. And I bought four cheapie things on Steam. Ack. Okay, I’m not going to get to all of this.
Suspense thrillers and spooky mysteries, sometimes, but slasher horror, nope.
Chris Neal (@wolfyseyes, blog): I am going deep into my sci-fi nonsense with some Daemon x Machina, some Super Robot Wars 30, and a bit of Elite Dangerous. I might also screw around and peer back in to Phantasy Star Online 2: New Genesis.
I hate scary movies. Which is weird because I love scary games. I guess it’s a matter of personal agency? I don’t know, it’s weird, I’m weird.
I love scary movies! Seriously, there’s something to appreciate in lots of different horror sub-genres, although movies that are straight-up gorn tend to bore me.
Larry Everett (@Shaddoe): I will be playing Conan Exiles‘ Dev Kit this weekend. Modding has been my life now. However, some of my friends want me to hop into Star Wars: The Old Republic to make sure that everything is in order for the upcoming expansion, so I will consider that.
I like horror movies, but I dislike jump scares because they are cheap. Movies like Hereditary have just the right amount of creepiness and shock factor to hit my horror movie sweet spot. Also, 80s slasher movies and the Saw franchise are just dumb enough and cringy enough for me to enjoy.
Sam Kash (@thesamkash): I’ve been pretty predictable this October. Guild Wars 2 Halloween events and New World take up my gaming time. Although I have been squeezing 30 minutes here and there in Undertale. I’ve heard lots of good things about it and finally decided to give it a try.
Bonus: No scary movies for me. Although I did like the original Ring when it was released.
Bonus question: Not usually. My idea of good horror is very different from 99% of the horror media in our current culture. I like spooky, ambient stuff — unsettling, not actually frightening.